i could use a wish right now

I wish it would stop raining. I wish I could get enough sleep. I wish to never hear the alarm in the morning because I could sleep as long as I want. I wish I could take myself to a bar alone and get myself drunk, take a cab home and say to myself, yeah I did it and have that awesome self-fulfillment that hey, I didn’t die from my alcohol-induced allergy. I wish I tried. I wish I could find me attractive. I wish to never have any insecurity because he loves me and I’m the only one he sees, and that he find my flaws sexy. I wish my stupid mouth wouldn’t get me in trouble. I wish I could say what I want without regretting it as soon as the words come out. I wish I could smile at strangers without having paranoidal ideations. I wish I could be a better person. I wish I could only see the good side of people. I wish I said I do too when he asked. I wished I saw it coming. I wish he would get my number and ask me out on a date. I wish to get distracted. I wish to eat Mcflurry - oreo right now while I’m typing this. I wish I could quit my job and start a full-time course on photography. I wish to get my own house. I wish I could drive. I wish I had a car. I wish I would only buy the things I need. I wish I had a walk-in closet. I wish I had a hundred pair of shoes. I wish I could sing like Adele. I wish to be good at something. I wish I could travel the world and write about it. I wish I had an unlimited supply of chicken nuggets and fries. I wish those wouldn’t make me fat. I wish I could go home. I wish I could fast forward to December.